Dear Jessi, Tonight you and your diagnosis are on my heart to the point where sleep will be near impossible. Although I know we’re fighting two different kinds of illnesses, finding out about someone else’s crappy health news has a unique way of initiating a PTSD-kind of anxiety as I try to remember what was most helpful … Continue reading Dear Jessi

I see you. You are not alone. I see you showing up every day. I see you struggling out of your bed every morning, exhausted beyond belief. I see you tossing and turning all night long, trying to find a comfortable position that doesn’t hurt. I see you when you realize that doesn’t exist. I … Continue reading I See You

This week I saw my doctor again. He is concerned about bone marrow suppression at this point. We agreed not starting other treatment right now. Chemotherapy has completely taken a toll on my body. I am anemic, (no surprise) I have scary low levels of so many other things right now. Levels are way too … Continue reading Is Time Ever on my Side?

As women, we paint on a smile with our makeup. We slip our shirt over our heads with a veil of strength. In the mirror, we see what the world sees, but our reflection doesn’t always reveal the pain, sadness, exhaustion, and weakness we feel inside. Out the door we go, we put on our … Continue reading Alter Ego or Reflection?

This week has been hard. Tonight has been hard. I am a mom of one. I am someone who is happy, full of life, spontaneous and loves making memories. I love to make people laugh even though it’s usually at my expense. I like this person. I miss this person. You see, recently I have … Continue reading The Night The Lights Went Out In Georgia (I mean Texas)

I used to be someone who said, “God doesn’t give you more than you can handle.” That was before I had faced any hardships in my life. When people are going through something hard and decide to share it, it makes people uncomfortable. It’s hard to watch others who are hurting, and it’s hard not … Continue reading 9 Months and Counting