This week has been hard. Tonight has been hard. I am a mom of one. I am someone who is happy, full of life, spontaneous and loves making memories. I love to make people laugh even though it’s usually at my expense. I like this person. I miss this person. You see, recently I have … Continue reading The Night The Lights Went Out In Georgia (I mean Texas)

I used to be someone who said, “God doesn’t give you more than you can handle.” That was before I had faced any hardships in my life. When people are going through something hard and decide to share it, it makes people uncomfortable. It’s hard to watch others who are hurting, and it’s hard not … Continue reading 9 Months and Counting

Pretending to be strong is exhausting. Acting like you're okay is draining. Putting up a front like you're fine is tiring. Making it seem like nothing affects you is a lot of work. Keeping everything bottled up takes a lot of effort. Shutting everybody out uses up a lot of energy. I know you. I … Continue reading 3:56am Words

I can’t even begin to explain how much you mean to me. You’ve been my bestie since diapers, my personal therapist, and my own makeshift superhero boyfriend when I need rescuing. Let’s not forget the high school years. For that, I promise... I'll pick up the phone at 2AM or 2PM, when you call me bringing … Continue reading Dear M&M

I fell asleep on the couch last night. I’ve never done that. I go in Ashton’s room and there’s no teenager in sight. Then I see this. He is sprawled out on my bed just like he used to do when he was little. I can’t help but smile. To hold on until he’s ready … Continue reading Teenager MIA

It wasn’t until a week after my official diagnosis that I realized there might be a slight possibility that my doctor was wrong. Maybe I don’t have Lupus. Maybe I have something less serious that actually has a cure. Maybe it’s something that mimics the symptoms of Lupus and my medical diagnosis will change. Maybe … Continue reading Not Today Lupus, Not Today

I'm on borrowed time with my teenager. He turns 15 this year and will fly the coop for good in the blink of an eye. But for now, he is here, and I'm determined to make the most of the days we have left together. In these days when childhood is in it's death throes … Continue reading Borrowed Time

While I miss the old me, I would never trade places with her. If I could, I would go back in time and tell her to enjoy it. I would also tell her that the best is yet to come. That as happy as she is, her heart isn’t even close to full. That not … Continue reading Dear Young Sarah

These are the days that blend into one another. That are at once endless and fleeting; simultaneously tedious and filled with more color and life and love and fun than any you’ve ever known before. Because these are also the days that are filled to the brim with purpose. The days when getting up in … Continue reading These are the Days

As we celebrate your tenth birthday tonight I am reminded how delicate time can be. I've watched you grow into a sweet and kind little girl who is a lover of life, animals, bow hunting and all things sunny. There is no other little girl quit like you and there's no little girl I could … Continue reading Fly With Your Own Wings